Pretty High On Sugar.

One day, you'll see my name "Michelle Lee" on top of the list.

Soon enough.

For 2011, I'm proud to say that I have achieved 6 out of 8 of my resolutions. And this year I strive to be better with my new goals!

1. Excel and graduate from university!
2. Exercise thrice a week at the gym.
3. Work harder and expand my client base.
4. Ensure I have activity at work.
5. Earn and save up $30k! 
6. Achieve QCE (so I can get promoted soon)
7. Stay optimistic no matter what.
8. Never give up!

And really there's this strong urge in me to make sure I achieve these goals.

The painting fell off the wall suddenly and I had to clear up the mess, pieces of shattered glass. THEN! I found this 4 digit number behind the wooden part of the portait! Darn,almost striked!!! Recently all the numbers that I have bought, are either missed by one digit or jump digits. Seriously, I think I don't have such luck. My luck will only come from my hardwork. Haha, don't worry I'm not turning into a compulsive gambler!I just...wanna try my luck and apparently... you know.

Something new, I've made my first purchase of physical gold with the help of a friend! And it so happens that the price was on the low. I predict it will rise when it is nearer to CNY. So.. window shopping, became a instant buy. The good news is, the price appreciated the next day! :)

It's like an achievement to me.

X'mas was well-spent with dinner at a chinese restaurant, where we went for granny's birthday in November. I did all the driving today! So tiring. I feel like a part time chauffeur. Overall, still a good day, with the cooling weather! Feels abit like aussie.

Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year!

The weather has been rainy these days and it feels abit like xmas due to the cooler temperature. It has been about 26 degrees on average! But the rainy days has caused our Orchard Road to flood. And LKY once said, "if you dont want flood to happen, then 90% of Singapore has to be made into canals"

PLUS, whats getting on my nerves is actually the inefficiency of the SMRT services, they decreased the speed of their trains BUT NOT the price, so my journeys to work and home has PROLONGED. Pretty annoyed by it, and I almost became one of the victims to get stucked in the train for hours, luckily I managed to escaped because the client, brought forward the appointment.

I kinda love this year thus far, and I'm gonna write up my short reflections for the year 2011 and my new year resolution for the new year 2012 :) Stay tuned!

AND a Merry Christmas to everyone! <3

I can't help think about the whole damn issue again.

I'm thinking, either that I'm a shitty employee or the shitty person is my boss.

I understand that i have an attitude problem, but this is the way I am. I still don't see it as an issue, cos I believe everyone has their own attitude problems. So fuck it.

I don't understand why is there such an existence of a so-called leader. Is the person even qualified to lead me? Maybe I really lack the EQ like what the Master has told me before.

So the question bothering me now is, to remain tolerant till I reach the limit, or to just move on. It's a tough choice. I hate it when I have to make difficult choices in life.

Referring to the title, I tried looking from a mirror, but from each and every angle I have scrutinized and I really do not think the problem lies with me. Every word and sentence I told to close people around me, are nothing but facts. I do not make up stories to make myself seem victimized. And to those who know me well, should know well enough that I'm a very highly tolerant person, and I tend to bottle up alot. But this time, I have exploded, to the people around me, to judge the situation for me.

So, the conclusion is, I'm really frustrated about this.

I hate doing household chores and the time has arrived, for spring cleaning! omfg I seriously hate IT!!! Cleaning all the lizard shit and what's not. And I'm glad I'm almost done helping. Plus all the nagging, has ceased by at least maybe 5% from a 115%.

Oh yes, I have been bitching much about my manager, and he is one fucking stingy man, with stupid mood swings as well. So I compared with my other colleagues and check out if their manager has been treating them this way too. Turns out, mine is one shit in the brain with poor welfare.

Fuck this shit.

Yesterday was  my second time meeting a prospect from cold calling. She's only 26 and has been diagnosed with congential illness called, 'AVM' since 20 years old. And from then onwards she can't take up any plans, and the saddest part is, her life is now like a time bomb. She may just die anytime.

She shared with me her life-threatening experiences, like how her brain has ruptured twice and she has gotten stroke like last year July. Currently she can't see with her left eye. It's pretty sad on how she cannot even plan for the next 10-30 years unlike normal beings like us. While she has to battle with her illness and just pray that she can live by another day, each day is a blessing to her.

Imagine yourself in her shoes, if you were her, will you still be as brave and positive about life? I think I'd get into depression and never wake up from it. Just reflect, at the age of 20, probably just graduated from JC/Poly, life is full of anticipation and excitement, but suddenly a illness just strike out of nowhere and WHAM! there goes everything, all your hardwork, all your goals, nothing is as important as your own life now.

From her, I have learned how to count my blessings and also never to belittle our brains, even a small image like a bird, requires our brain to process through. And also, illnesses may strike to anyone, even the young, and hence it's really very important to keep yourself insured from young, no matter how small the protection may seem to be, something is still better than nothing.

Be thankful, that, at least you're alive, kicking and most importantly healthy. So please do not abuse this privilege you have, and cherish it.

I just completed my 10km run!

What an achievement :)

Feeling abit tired now, woke up at 5 plus to get ready. Photos will be up soon! BKK trip was awesome, but just with the wrong type of company, I like being alone but circumstances don't allow me to, not for too long. I actually shopped alone on the 1st day since I lost everyone else and went back to hotel, they said they will return but didn't so I just left out again on my own! Did all the shopping I wanted and needed but they only still at shopping center no. 1 -.-''

See, that's the problem.

When I feel like giving up, which most of the times, I really want to,

but I'll remind myself, what made me kept holding on so hard in the first place.

I will just keep on running and running, and never give up.

No matter how slow, I know, I will get there somehow. This is why I like running, it keeps me going, training my determination and its really therapeutic. It heals my broken confidence and clears my dark mind.

It just feels so goooood.

FUCK YOU ASSHOLE.